Haiti in Our Prayers

Today is one of those days that you just thank God for all He's done for you, and pray for those that need His help.

I wanted to just put it out there, for anyone who reads this, that the world is much bigger than our little dot. We're each nothing more than a pinprick and in order to be more we must help those outside our normal sphere of thought. All I ask of the world right now is to think about those that are in trouble right this moment in Haiti.

Send up your prayers.

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W.O.R.D.S. of the Day

These aren't anything deep...just me being special at work, enjoy! :)


I'm the baddest that you'll ever meet, baddest that you've ever seen
Hair just touchin heaven, higher than an aero-plane
Brag and boast, just to coast on the Coast with my A-list team
Make about a mil, in all my favorite dreams


Never spun a record, barely got a beat
But I spit these lyrics better than those out in the street.
Just cough it up and let it out, can't stop this mental beat
Wake you up from your sleep, got my lyrics in your sheets.


Its just raw flavor, so protection won't save ya
Open up, drink it up, I got a brand new flow to savor
Now I'm done clownin', back to makin' paper
On that note, no mo' jokes, just take note. I'll see ya later.   

lol, that's me being bored at work. ugh, im only here to make that dollar.
enjoy my boredom.
deuces.

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Book Covers...Don't Judge 'Em

Many people get the wrong impression about me when they first meet and/or see me. Apparently, I don't smile.

Well, I'm sorry if I'm not going to be walking around with a random smile on my face if there's nothing even slightly amusing. I mean, wouldn't you think I had issues, or a little off, if I had a permanent smile plastered on my face? I would think that of someone else...maybe I'm the strange one. I've gotten from a lot of my close friends that when they first met me, they thought I was a capital B****. And I don't blame them, I guess anyone would look severe without a lopsided grin on their face.

As it turns out, I'm a pretty nice person, at least I like to think so. I guess I get the not smiling thing from my mom and older sister. we're an intimidating trio once put together; all standing over 5'8...glaring at people. Yet we're all captivating so maybe thats an additional intimidation factor...I sound real arrogant right now. But I'm merely stating facts, honestly, don't hold it against me.

And don't EVER tell me to smile, my dimples are shared with a reserved and deserving few :) .

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W.O.R.D.S. of the Day

and so he grabbed her by the throat again,
sayin' "Don't act out again!"
the scars were worst, still worst, the pain again.
it hurts to know he could be so bold
and try to destroy something God evoked.
like going against the Word and preaching his own
maybe she'll be smart in the end
wake up and just leave this man
but we both know the truth
once the tears stop flowing and the bruises start clearing
she'll remember the loving,
while the healing takes time, her mental being is dying.


in our mind's eyes there's no surprise
to see her with him when the blacks and blues have waned
her skin more colored with hurt than his, with melanin.
now don't read this wrong, it's not his darkness that drives this
but the darkness within him, deeper to the core, merged deep, deep down within him.
something that moves in waves of frustration and almost consumes him.
his rage made redder with heat, if he had only read her these lines, then maybe she would leave...
knowing he was worse than he seemed,
a sheep with wolves' eyes could mean only one thing.


analogies describe him, yet he's an anomaly to me
to take out his hurt, his pain, on someone like she
who could only give and never receive, and she'll keep giving till her heart's with he.
now resting in his palm, he controls her every life's beat.
and her arteries call out to him just to feel a gentle pulse,
for he sustains her being, her life, he is the source.


i pray she wakes up one day and snatches her life away
pumping her her own life through her own veins someday,
making her own plans no longer living her life in vain.
i peeked through her window to see if she'll wake
but without making a noise i may have left dreams scattered for her sake


and she's still asleep, a slumber so deep...maybe if i touch her?
nah, i think all there is to do is weep.

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Today was a Good Day

I woke up this morning and I was happy. God trusted me with another day.

So I actually tried really, really, really hard to be at work early. I made it in at 8:32! I start work at 8:30. This however is a small accomplishment in and of itself because I usually get here just by 8:41am. In my mind I've won this battle, still struggling to take on the war though. But today is one of those days that I can really relate to what Ice Cube was talking about. A simple, but really good day. I feel it coming on.

I had a convo with my Dad the other day. Apparently, my younger half-sister is acting out, she's 17 so I guess it's expected? Wrong. We're African there is no such thing as teenage angst (I'm Liberian American, born and raised in the U.S. of A, but completely identified with my roots). I proceeded to ask my dad what he wanted me to do in this situation. He thinks that I have some sort of influence over her, which is completely false! Now you would have to understand the dynamic between my younger sister and I. We never grew up together, I saw her maybe once a year throughout my life, if even. But whenever I did see her I tried my best to be that older sister that I see in my older sister. I've come to realize over the years that I'm a better older sister for my best friend's siblings than I am for my own. This upsets me and I want to change, but isn't it too late?

Back to the situation at hand. Ultimately I feel like I don't know what I'm supposed to say to someone that barely respects their own mother. Scratch that. I do know what to say, but I don't know if it's going to sink in with her. My younger sister is beautiful and sweet when she wants to be, but I feel like she's going about her life the wrong way, making the wrong things important.

I guess I'll figure it out and call her tonight, then maybe she'll act right and start having some "good days" as well.

Today is and will be a good day, I hope for the same for you.

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Third Time Today

Hey,

So apparently people DO read my blog! lol. but yeah i think i might be addicted to this thing.

I think I've found my drug of choice
I've found a course to let my voice be heard over all this discourse.
A course different from the path of the life pulsing through my veins.
This high needs no needle, causes no pain.
This high can be sustained without the use of coke, can
Be recharged without even reaching a low, point
Me in the direction that sends my blood rushin' pure, clean
Thoughts awaken my drugged up soul.
And I'm happy 


:)

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Future Plans, more like Next Month's Plans

So, I mentioned previously that I made some major changes in my life. One of these changes involves my career path. I got my B.A. in Biology, howsomeever, I am now headed down the path of pursuing my MBA in Accounting. I know, WTH?!? right?

I figured at some point I could merge the two though. Like I'm really interested in furthering scientific discoveries, but I'm just as interested in the blood of the world, cash (Lil Wayne reference here, check out "We are Young Money"). So what better way of accomplishing said merge, than by working in the pharmaceutical industry, on the business end of things. I figure it is a lucrative industry and people are always going to have one ailment or another so why not?

Now I'm focused on the GMATs...or should I say the graduate version of the SATs all over again. It sucks, but I think I can do it. Surprising enough, a lot of non-business majors go into business after undergrad, so I am no longer deterred in that respect. My only concern is the heavy requests for business related job experience prior to admission at any B-school. Ugh! I JUST decided to do this. OF COURSE, I don't have any job experience in the business world.

Which leads me to the next major change...I'm moving to Liberia in February to work for pops...I'll show you admissions people "job experience", smh. The things they've forced me to do...

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